it's all coming to the end

Yeah everything always has ending..

It's not always happy ending sometimes the producer want to make it dramatic so it became sad ending instead.

Well it s not like every producer purposely want to make it based on their wants but sometimes it has to match with the stories..

Just look at all the koreans drama.. some stories didnt ended well because the producer forced it to ended that way.. in the end, the crowds made a 'booo' sounds..
in conclusion, we cannot force thing to happen.. just let it be then it would be perfect in time.


Im going tomorrow.. to study...in America...
NEBRASKA

It s sad to realized that I have to leave my family..my mom,dad, sister, and my beloved grandma..
Ive been a jerk to them whole this summer break..They were mad.. yes, and I know it too..

We always argue things that we re not supposed to argue.

There is a time when we had really big fight..I dunno why but it was just happen..


I was sad honestly, we didnt get along because arguing about food??

anyway.. I dont know what to say probably I wont be blogging until next year or next break..

Just let it be because it wont ended  perfectly if you forced it..even I have to teach myself over and over again..

so long friends.. I hope to see u soon

X.O.X.O
VVG

it s been a while

Hi there again, guys!!!!!

just little update with me (wait Im not Michelle Phan)..

I ve been recently busy spending time with my bed.. I mean literally I am becoming lazy ass..
I dont know exactly the reason but Indonesia make me feel spoiled way too much (I think) because I got everything pretty much that I want (not all the time) sponsored by parents off course.

But the things are not going that smooth because we are lacking of transportation.. Normally we have 3 cars but now we only have 2 cars because my dad decided to sell one of them ( it was okay with them because me and my sis were studying abroad so no one ride the car) and nowadays it is very inconvenience to us because we re no longer have extra car to ride.

So, all this time ive been spending time with my family and if my dad comes home earlier he usually bring me to somewhere place that I would like to visit.. My sister too whenever she got time, she would bring me to the places that has been a trend for teenager.. Those places were so cool because I felt none of them would ever built in Indonesia.

I relized even Jakarta itself already make a lots of improvements.. The city, buildings, economics, and restaurants.. Everything gradually changes into something luxury..

Im feeling rich whenever I ended up visiting one of the hang out place in Jakarta because the interior design was so overwhelming meanwhile the food and beverage are just okay ( I m pretty sure you can make it homemade if you wanna check it out in youtube).. You could not imagine how architect came up with those idea ( they sure study long enough to get the degree lol).

Off course for me, all of these are too much.. not mentioning about how much money I have..

First of all, I am not used to this..
All these has changed since not so long time ago.. probably when I just about to start my freshman year in college they starter to build these whole luxury things.. and by time I was out side of the country not knowing what's going on back in Indo they are developing the business. By the time I get home then BOOM I know nothing about all these stuff.. It was like I ve been sleeping and woke up knowing only your family exist but not your surrounding..
I like western food but you know the best food you ever taste is always been from your own country. I cannot lie about this I miss my mom's cook more than anything.. So this time I wanna keep it traditional but it s sure not easy to find my own food in this era.. Yes I know there would be one but that is not the food that you and your friend would get when you guys went out.

Everything is so freaking expensive geezz...
I miss food that has good quality but still has friendly price (harga bersahabat) lol. Im not saying my family could not afford it but we had been taught for always save money and think rational when it comes to buy food.. Nowadays, there are not few restaurant offer you poor quality food and the price are insane. 

Im on diet lol!!
okay guys I know this is ridiculous.. the diet that I meant is not you guys think.. I want food that keep me healthy and fit (whatt thhee heellll)..
Okay I was joking about diet.. but I admit western food is sure fattening.. and everything now pretty much is either the combination of western food or purely westernized.
Even now, my home country food didnt feel healthy at all but I dont know about the calories and stuff because my mom told me not to be so concern about that.. she told me YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE (YOLO) and I would be very the stupidest human being on earth if I did not enjoy food..
Yeah right.. lol

But mommmmm!! I m also a teenager (almost adult) who wanna be skinny even once.. I NEVER BEEN SKINNY IN MY LIFE WHY DONT YOU UNDERSTAND??!!! okay that s too much.. I never said that to my mom, mami TERE lol!! I just sometimes say something sarcastic to her about how she fed me way too much food back then.. Well thanks to her tho, I have this almost-athletic body ( big + flabby muscle) hahah lol!!

well we have been fighting ( not literally) or i can say arguing about how much rice I should eat and she always give A LOT like really whole full plate of rice standing in front of me.. I was like this is not necessary.. small amount of rice is enough but not whole plate.. I dont play tennis like I used to be..and my mom goes like




YOU HAVE TO EAT A LOT!!!!!



:( sigh




X.O.X.O
VVG

Nowhere to run ehh??

If there is nowhere to run which i mean ive been update my life with twitter and facebook and now path the recent social media just appeared..the whole situation is im having big conflict with everyone so there is no way im gonna post it on facebook and twitter right?!!!

I decided to log back into my blog account hich i barely use (last time i used it for finding LS) looorrrrrrr!!!

Anyway this all started when i went back home to indonesia for the third time hahaha i really make it sound like do i?? This time i went back home ALL of em got annoyed with my recent behavior..
WHYWHYWHY????


Jeng jeng jeng.......

Because well u know i think i hit the puberty kinda late...i realized im feeling it right now..when i didnt care about other's opinion, my friends already did..when i didnt care about my appearance others already did..

Now i feel like i have to really keep my food portion to get a proportional body ehhh??

I dont know what im doing actually.. I just keep my portion less than everyone that was my only goal..

Why did i even do this shit??

Because i realized last year when i went back to indo for the second time i can say i was huge whahahahah lol.. I LOVE foods okay..everyone does even models they love it too..

I dont like running or working out ughhhh..but i gotta do it because i feel have to maintain my stamina.. Is that even reasonable??


Okay the main reason is because i just dont want to be chubby anymore hihihi chubby awww ..
I feel like once i get chubby it s hard to get back into shapes again sooooo hmmm i have to keep checking on my foods??i think so??may be u guys disagree with me like my fam did but this is what im doing for currently..

And the funny facts about my family : they really loves me to eat alot!!! Like alot!! Hahaha even. Think that was too much of foods but they just want me to be happy and they know i lbe foods!!

But when they see me like this they all got disappointed and i dont know may be pissed at me..

I always envy every mom that always support their children to eat less (this sounds wrong) but my mom is not type of person like that..

So anyone can help me out with this problem?? I really like to hear some advice????( like anyone care or read my blog eh??)

X.oX.o
Vvg

haihai hoooo!!!!

okay guys i know this is completely random but i really want to make a cooking tutorial (although i cant even cook well) but past these year due to living by myself i found myself enjoying cooking so much... I know my roomie doesnt even compliment my skill yet but you know what that means u gotta try harder (stubbooorrrnn!!)

especially i know i ve been acting super duper weird lately and i know what the cause of it.

i give u some hint....it 's about guy.......

it's ridiculous isnt it? i mean i was completely cannot think clear and began to not trust every guy that i met..that s so silly of me ( i just realized that like just now literally lol)...

I know it was not even serious but it still bugs me. and i was kinda lost my pride.. all i want is just to get my pride back that's it!!

but......

it's very hard to forget someone that really meant for u during valentines day *kyyyaaa
okay i was being a little bit exaggerating but it s true...none of the girls would easy to get through break-ups....

in my case it was not break ups it s about something elseeee...

well i cant really tell you because i decided to forget what happen in the past


there is no point to recall those memories back...yes there is not!!


so for you guys that by any chance read my blog and having break-ups moment..dont be sad...

YOURE NOT ALONE!!!!

there are still plenty of guys out there!!

go out and have fun with them hawhahwhawhhaha!!

not literally like sleep around okay?hahahhaha

btw i caught a bouquet of flower today from my cousins' wedding..it was very suprising for me because i never had one..

anw.......

i know there is moment that i will for sure think or recall memories that i had with my past but in the other hand ill try to see happen next :)


X.O.X.O
VVG

backkk!!!summer 2013

heeloww my little feellowss!!

how all u been doing without me??

WANTED!!
I really desperate looking for one of my close friend LS!!WHERE ARE U SIHH???
this blog is the only way i can let u know how I ve been missing u and eager to hear about your gossip!!!

please let me know if u read this post and I know you will!!!!

hahaha

X.O.X.O
VVG

Happy New Year guyss!!!

HEIHO!!

WAADDDAPPP???


Omg I feel so depressed now just wanna try to cheer myself up..

I know it sucks but shit happens..

ANW, today I am NOT in a very good mood..

I couldnt sleep until 6 and I was having breakfast instead to go to bed..

afternoon I BURNT chickens that I supposed to cook for lunch :( :( :( ..BYE BYE my $6

and I dont know why I kept on spacing out today

I know the reason why but the thing is I dont want to tell u guys because I really think that I m pathetic now and I am embarrassed of myself..

I really need motivation or inspiration I dont care which one but pleaseeee give me one RIGHT NOW LOLL!! (LS!! IM CRYING FOR HELP!!)

and I guess I need time to solve all of the problems...


New Year is coming so I shall wish for what I want right?????