HEIHO!!

WAADDDAPPP???


Omg I feel so depressed now just wanna try to cheer myself up..

I know it sucks but shit happens..

ANW, today I am NOT in a very good mood..

I couldnt sleep until 6 and I was having breakfast instead to go to bed..

afternoon I BURNT chickens that I supposed to cook for lunch :( :( :( ..BYE BYE my $6

and I dont know why I kept on spacing out today

I know the reason why but the thing is I dont want to tell u guys because I really think that I m pathetic now and I am embarrassed of myself..

I really need motivation or inspiration I dont care which one but pleaseeee give me one RIGHT NOW LOLL!! (LS!! IM CRYING FOR HELP!!)

and I guess I need time to solve all of the problems...


New Year is coming so I shall wish for what I want right????? 

Christmas

White Christmas that I've been waiting for it's all gone now..


No boyfriend hell yeah...

my family went to Bali for vacation wtv...

anw, I am really REALLY sad now..it hurts somehow but i couldnt say anything because I cannot do anything...

why did u choose me in the first place? duh....

I am really sober plus lonely and sad in this christmas day..

writing "christmas" just remind me of his name wth :(

Please oh please white Christmas please be kind to me.. I am restless..

curiosity

People say too much of curiosity is a bad thing.....

well it's not like I over thinking (I try to not over think) but something unexpected happened today whether it is accidentally or naturally...

But I really dead seriously curious about this...

Just cannot get out from my head this freaking surprised me........

I don't know how to say it whether it is a good thing or a bad thing but I did not dislike it :P...

anyway I am bored now!!! Kearney really does not have any spirit for celebrating holiday huh???

ciao,
vicvangun si miss galau LOL

What I did today

Honestly, today I did nothing...............

I went to wallgreen to print some picts.....

and went back home......

spacing out......

browsing.....

spacing out.......

read manga.......

spacing out.......

eat.........

go back to the internet.............

eat while browsing..........

spacing out again..............

eat snacks.............

spacing out................

eat snacks again...................

spacing out.......................

eat more snacks......................

spacing out again.........................

go back to browse...................

skype again........................

browse until the battery in my laptop died..............

spacing out while hearing music in the radio................

spacing out......................

open my laptop again..............

read manga..................

spacing out while writing this blog finally hahah LOL and now it's like 2.19 am in the morning OMG.. Im doing nothing Im super super boredd!!!!!!!


someone please cheer me up!!

PLEASE I BEG U THIS IS CHRISTMAS COMM'ON

oh Friday Nightt!!

Im doing nothing lol!!!!

actually i went to shopping mall with my friend earlier but i didnt really shop..

I just bought scarf and cami..

but i still got some pictures for u aww

DONE!!!CIAO!!GALAU!!

SNOWINNGG!!!

Today I feel bored and excited at the same time.. U know what..It's is snowing very hard in Kearney right now..LOLSS..

Yeahhh.. those people are my friends..They want to hang out outside of the house while it was snowing so bad and i was like no way!!! but they told me we are still young!!true that lol!!!

I love them LOL!!!

anw, I have to stayed all day long due to heavy snow..I cannot go anywhere..little bit sad but that's okay!!!!!!I have to be cool LOL (so random)

And all of sudden!! my friend came and give me a Christmas' card!!!so happy!!

It meant a lot for me thank you so much!!! kamsahamnida!!!!!

anddd~ I was bored all night so I decided to draw lololss...

Actually this picture was from long time ago I just took a picture of it because it looks good???

anw...Here's my drawing

I copy it right away from my ipod touch LOL!! I feel like i dont want to colour it because I dont feel confident for using watercolor..But the thing is!!! watercolor is the only one I got!!! so suck it upp!!!LOL!!



That's all for today!!!

I hope I can be cooler next time lol!!

X.O.X.O
vicvangun

Thanks a lot!!

yeah it's been fun with u..

I realized from today onwards we re never going to be like we used to be..

soo...ciaoo.. FAREWELL byeee.. that was my farewell to u.. I know u thought of me weird but let me just get clear to u..that's a christmas gift and it's nothing super nothing..

so..im relieved it s coming down to the conclusion...that we never have a thing together..well we did but we just deny it each other..

Honestly, Im kinda sad right now but that's okay..it's better this way...

have a great time later!!

X.O.X.O
vicvangun

RANDOM

SAYA BAHAGIA KARENA GPA SAYA 3.45 HAMPIR 3.5 LOLOLOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

cb kl accounting gw ga jelek pasti gw dpt bagus aaaaaaaaa

trying to be cool

Well.....

I tried...I tried to be cool..to this guy..

but he reply me this morning and say omg the text wasnt send actually and I was like okkayy keep it cool dont get to excited..

I dont know what should I do from now on but I really try hard to keep it cool...

anw..I HAVE TO BE COOL PERIOD!!!

.......

Dear, chalsengin oppa:

It's not like who is right and who is wrong..

I know I am gonna get hurt... he is no good for me..

But, i have a little confession to make okayy.. we did have something..

I meann..we got feelings for each other may be im not really sure from him but yeah from me..

And noww..I really try hard to forget him like dead seriously..

I feel sober today up until until and I feel lonely yeah..

I texted him first this morning but he didnt reply me although i knew that he read it already duh!!

anw..I was just gonna play a little bit more with him but it seems it's already over..(I sounded like a slut)

For those who are having same experience like me.........Dont fall for that guy too deep or else it would hurt u.. like me...or not...I dont know we'll see...

Fortunately..he's pretty awesome doing his job finding his gf's replacement.. and that was me lol..(over confident)

well I hate to say this but FAREWELL..nonono..we still gonna become a good 'friends' right????

I hope we can still keep continue for the time being not for the future I mean lololosss...

Sincerely,

your 'friend'

It's going down babiehh

I dont even know what that supposed to be mean but anw.. I've got a lot of issues and problems lately and I felt horrible at the same time because I couldnt solve it...

That was partially my fault too because I have a big mouth to share to people that I know..whenever I feel stressed and lonely, i just couldnt help it but talking about my issue to them..

For those who are having a similar situation like me let's high five LOLOLS..
well I should throw my bad habit.. this is couldnt be happening... I realized I made a mistake and I try to fix it but I cant..

So.. Today, honestly, I feel terribly lonely..I am sober now.. GALAUUU..

anw, I tried to cheer up myself.. I dressed up and I went to shop...
In the end, I purchase $50 for my shopping which is.......uhmmm........pretty expensive...lol...
But in order to relieve my stressed I just want to spend money THAT'S IT!!

and btw, I took some picture today..

I dont want to upload it on fb becauseeeeee.......my sis already warn me to not to..she was like pissed at me one time because her timeline was full of my pictures lololoss....

weelll yeahh that was it!!hope u guys like it (as if someone would read it lololo)



I feel terrible now I shall blame myself :(

it s coming to the end......

Like I said from the title, my summer break is coming to its end.

I don't know should I happy about it because im going back to Kearney that's mean I'll be able to meet my friends there or should I be sad because I'm leaving all my beloved people.

Especially, this year I wasn't able to meet up with my sis who is happening having an internship in Germany for 7 months and she'll be back on 30 August to Indonesia meanwhile Im leaving from Indonesia to Kearney on 20August..

It is ironic isn't it?? I cannot endure my flight ticket just to meet up with my sis for only 10 days differences. I just wished I could extend the date until the beginning of September but everything have to be this way or else I don't know what kind of situation that I would be struggling with my school later on because it is starts on 20 August.

I really couldn't describe my feelings because it's all randomly mixed up.
Between sad and happy...
What's the name of those feeling??
Honestly i don't really want to know because if humans sense of curiosity is over limit he/she might done mad which is I'm telling you guys that I'm about to reach that level. hmmmmm.. not really tho :p


I had my summer in Korea for one month. It was really fun how I shop a lot and it cost pretty expensive in the end, I got my hair done in Korea (trying to adapt K-Pop style :P), hunting for a Korean guy just for fun without any meaning, wondering around Seoul city it was really developed place, went to hike and reached the peak ( I was extremely happy) it was freaking awesome and the mountain that we went has such a beautiful scenery, strolling at E-mart and tried every food that they try to sell, went to Sauna, watched batman at 2.30 am until 5.30 am and in the end I just find that movie was funny enough (may be I was too sleepy back then couldnt differentiate between good and comedy movie), got to know Korean food so well, went to Seul-Ki's grandma's house and had a barbeque with the kids, hang out with Kyu (Seul Ki's cousin) she was so nice, visit Seul-Ki's grandpa at hospital because he was injured, and finally I throw up for 4 times in a row because of welll u know what makes teenager act stupid and dumb. LOL

Anyway, today I went to Skye with Anita because I was curious what's in there.

Skye is a restaurant and lounge bar that has prestige peoples inside
that's my definition about Skye.

So we went there and you know what!! they wont let people under 19 year old pass through the lounge that has better view than the restaurant.
I mean I don't want to seat at the restaurant because it s just like the usual restaurant that I've had.
I want the outdoor lounge that Skye proud of.

So we just went to social house just to get dinner and drinks....

note: you could bring your own water bottle but...don't really show it to everyone in such a prestige restaurant because they might think of you in a bad way. We can just don't care about it but to think about it who wants their image got ruin because of water bottle?
This is my personal experience because I brought water bottle today and it was quite embarrassing for me :p

PLUS......
I met a lot of actress and actot at Grand Indonesia.....
Pasha Ungu, Manohara, Cynthia Laudya Bella, and Aldo with Mika Tambayong..
I was shocked seeing them together.. and I just pointed at them accidentally without thinking who they were. I thought I've seen their face before but it turned out they were actually actress and actor.
Aldo seemed surprise because someone just pointed at him so casually. Well I think my confidence is over reach now. He wouldn't even see me if he would so he wouldn't care too.


HAHAHAHAAH
GALAUU


XOXO
VV

summer breaaaakk

Hai Guysss!!!

Whacha doin????
Im here finally in Indonesia for summer break yeayy after struggling a really loonngg flight!!
I arrived here around last 2 week actually but I didn't feel like want to blog right away at that time because I felt lazy. But something came up to me today that makes me wanna to start blogging again. That's because LS just came to Indonesia from Sin Jia Po and you know she is the one who inspired me to make blog from the start so here I am try to update my blog again..wawhawhahwha a.k.a LOL. 

Many things happen while Im in Indonesia. My rents start to play golf instead of tennis and they start to ask me too. I feel confused. But nevermind I just want to know how to play golf.

My internet connection sukcsss!!!!!!! I couldn't keep in touch with my friend on facebook. But I have blackberry now which is now the most important thing in the world for teenager life.

My dad bought an iPad just for fun. He didnt even know how to use it but because of peer pressure he just bought it.

There was an awkward moment with the guy that I thought was close friend to me but apparently he wanted something from me. He was so nice at first but I found him a little bit creepy because he  was unpredictable to give me things. Or there is a case where there were several of guys who dont use their mind or I called it idiot enough to ask to go out with another girl or he said just to confess his feelings but he didn't mean to go out with that girl because he already have a gilfriend. THAT WS AWKWARD. I didn't mean to point anyone okay..peaceee :) Im not being rude I just want to state my opinion in my BLOG what if that's happening (I dont think anyone would read this tho).

I m gonna fly to Korea not in a month.. I feel excited but sad at the same time tho..

I keep thinking why Im not having a boyfriend (this is usual thing even in nebraska LOL) well Im single and ready to minglee..hohoho..

Yesterday someone told my mom that she loves me more than my sis. And I said to my mom that it s not true because if you love me you wouldnt let me play tennis in the first place and at first I was totally kidding but she was like..'I thought you enjoyed it." uupppsss.. and I go "it's not like that mom. I got the benefit tho from it but the thing is something that I envy my sis which is she can go out every night if she was in my situation while me just accompanying you wherever you go. Conclusion I dont really have that many friends :( .."
That was awkward I think becasue I keep explaining to my mom until now actually..wahwhawha aka LOL..

Im officially become jobless and I have a friend of mine who have the same occupation as me so we can hang out together..ahhahahahahahhahaha...

My tenniss.........I will always love you even tho I play like shitt hahahahahahaa..sorry...Im such a bad player :(

That's all I wanna say in this section hope u guys have a good summer breakk!!!!

ciaaooooo..

X.O.X.O
V V