HEIHO!!

WAADDDAPPP???


Omg I feel so depressed now just wanna try to cheer myself up..

I know it sucks but shit happens..

ANW, today I am NOT in a very good mood..

I couldnt sleep until 6 and I was having breakfast instead to go to bed..

afternoon I BURNT chickens that I supposed to cook for lunch :( :( :( ..BYE BYE my $6

and I dont know why I kept on spacing out today

I know the reason why but the thing is I dont want to tell u guys because I really think that I m pathetic now and I am embarrassed of myself..

I really need motivation or inspiration I dont care which one but pleaseeee give me one RIGHT NOW LOLL!! (LS!! IM CRYING FOR HELP!!)

and I guess I need time to solve all of the problems...


New Year is coming so I shall wish for what I want right????? 

Christmas

White Christmas that I've been waiting for it's all gone now..


No boyfriend hell yeah...

my family went to Bali for vacation wtv...

anw, I am really REALLY sad now..it hurts somehow but i couldnt say anything because I cannot do anything...

why did u choose me in the first place? duh....

I am really sober plus lonely and sad in this christmas day..

writing "christmas" just remind me of his name wth :(

Please oh please white Christmas please be kind to me.. I am restless..

curiosity

People say too much of curiosity is a bad thing.....

well it's not like I over thinking (I try to not over think) but something unexpected happened today whether it is accidentally or naturally...

But I really dead seriously curious about this...

Just cannot get out from my head this freaking surprised me........

I don't know how to say it whether it is a good thing or a bad thing but I did not dislike it :P...

anyway I am bored now!!! Kearney really does not have any spirit for celebrating holiday huh???

ciao,
vicvangun si miss galau LOL

What I did today

Honestly, today I did nothing...............

I went to wallgreen to print some picts.....

and went back home......

spacing out......

browsing.....

spacing out.......

read manga.......

spacing out.......

eat.........

go back to the internet.............

eat while browsing..........

spacing out again..............

eat snacks.............

spacing out................

eat snacks again...................

spacing out.......................

eat more snacks......................

spacing out again.........................

go back to browse...................

skype again........................

browse until the battery in my laptop died..............

spacing out while hearing music in the radio................

spacing out......................

open my laptop again..............

read manga..................

spacing out while writing this blog finally hahah LOL and now it's like 2.19 am in the morning OMG.. Im doing nothing Im super super boredd!!!!!!!


someone please cheer me up!!

PLEASE I BEG U THIS IS CHRISTMAS COMM'ON

oh Friday Nightt!!

Im doing nothing lol!!!!

actually i went to shopping mall with my friend earlier but i didnt really shop..

I just bought scarf and cami..

but i still got some pictures for u aww

DONE!!!CIAO!!GALAU!!

SNOWINNGG!!!

Today I feel bored and excited at the same time.. U know what..It's is snowing very hard in Kearney right now..LOLSS..

Yeahhh.. those people are my friends..They want to hang out outside of the house while it was snowing so bad and i was like no way!!! but they told me we are still young!!true that lol!!!

I love them LOL!!!

anw, I have to stayed all day long due to heavy snow..I cannot go anywhere..little bit sad but that's okay!!!!!!I have to be cool LOL (so random)

And all of sudden!! my friend came and give me a Christmas' card!!!so happy!!

It meant a lot for me thank you so much!!! kamsahamnida!!!!!

anddd~ I was bored all night so I decided to draw lololss...

Actually this picture was from long time ago I just took a picture of it because it looks good???

anw...Here's my drawing

I copy it right away from my ipod touch LOL!! I feel like i dont want to colour it because I dont feel confident for using watercolor..But the thing is!!! watercolor is the only one I got!!! so suck it upp!!!LOL!!



That's all for today!!!

I hope I can be cooler next time lol!!

X.O.X.O
vicvangun

Thanks a lot!!

yeah it's been fun with u..

I realized from today onwards we re never going to be like we used to be..

soo...ciaoo.. FAREWELL byeee.. that was my farewell to u.. I know u thought of me weird but let me just get clear to u..that's a christmas gift and it's nothing super nothing..

so..im relieved it s coming down to the conclusion...that we never have a thing together..well we did but we just deny it each other..

Honestly, Im kinda sad right now but that's okay..it's better this way...

have a great time later!!

X.O.X.O
vicvangun

RANDOM

SAYA BAHAGIA KARENA GPA SAYA 3.45 HAMPIR 3.5 LOLOLOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

cb kl accounting gw ga jelek pasti gw dpt bagus aaaaaaaaa

trying to be cool

Well.....

I tried...I tried to be cool..to this guy..

but he reply me this morning and say omg the text wasnt send actually and I was like okkayy keep it cool dont get to excited..

I dont know what should I do from now on but I really try hard to keep it cool...

anw..I HAVE TO BE COOL PERIOD!!!

.......

Dear, chalsengin oppa:

It's not like who is right and who is wrong..

I know I am gonna get hurt... he is no good for me..

But, i have a little confession to make okayy.. we did have something..

I meann..we got feelings for each other may be im not really sure from him but yeah from me..

And noww..I really try hard to forget him like dead seriously..

I feel sober today up until until and I feel lonely yeah..

I texted him first this morning but he didnt reply me although i knew that he read it already duh!!

anw..I was just gonna play a little bit more with him but it seems it's already over..(I sounded like a slut)

For those who are having same experience like me.........Dont fall for that guy too deep or else it would hurt u.. like me...or not...I dont know we'll see...

Fortunately..he's pretty awesome doing his job finding his gf's replacement.. and that was me lol..(over confident)

well I hate to say this but FAREWELL..nonono..we still gonna become a good 'friends' right????

I hope we can still keep continue for the time being not for the future I mean lololosss...

Sincerely,

your 'friend'

It's going down babiehh

I dont even know what that supposed to be mean but anw.. I've got a lot of issues and problems lately and I felt horrible at the same time because I couldnt solve it...

That was partially my fault too because I have a big mouth to share to people that I know..whenever I feel stressed and lonely, i just couldnt help it but talking about my issue to them..

For those who are having a similar situation like me let's high five LOLOLS..
well I should throw my bad habit.. this is couldnt be happening... I realized I made a mistake and I try to fix it but I cant..

So.. Today, honestly, I feel terribly lonely..I am sober now.. GALAUUU..

anw, I tried to cheer up myself.. I dressed up and I went to shop...
In the end, I purchase $50 for my shopping which is.......uhmmm........pretty expensive...lol...
But in order to relieve my stressed I just want to spend money THAT'S IT!!

and btw, I took some picture today..

I dont want to upload it on fb becauseeeeee.......my sis already warn me to not to..she was like pissed at me one time because her timeline was full of my pictures lololoss....

weelll yeahh that was it!!hope u guys like it (as if someone would read it lololo)



I feel terrible now I shall blame myself :(