Nowhere to run ehh??

If there is nowhere to run which i mean ive been update my life with twitter and facebook and now path the recent social media just appeared..the whole situation is im having big conflict with everyone so there is no way im gonna post it on facebook and twitter right?!!!

I decided to log back into my blog account hich i barely use (last time i used it for finding LS) looorrrrrrr!!!

Anyway this all started when i went back home to indonesia for the third time hahaha i really make it sound like do i?? This time i went back home ALL of em got annoyed with my recent behavior..
WHYWHYWHY????


Jeng jeng jeng.......

Because well u know i think i hit the puberty kinda late...i realized im feeling it right now..when i didnt care about other's opinion, my friends already did..when i didnt care about my appearance others already did..

Now i feel like i have to really keep my food portion to get a proportional body ehhh??

I dont know what im doing actually.. I just keep my portion less than everyone that was my only goal..

Why did i even do this shit??

Because i realized last year when i went back to indo for the second time i can say i was huge whahahahah lol.. I LOVE foods okay..everyone does even models they love it too..

I dont like running or working out ughhhh..but i gotta do it because i feel have to maintain my stamina.. Is that even reasonable??


Okay the main reason is because i just dont want to be chubby anymore hihihi chubby awww ..
I feel like once i get chubby it s hard to get back into shapes again sooooo hmmm i have to keep checking on my foods??i think so??may be u guys disagree with me like my fam did but this is what im doing for currently..

And the funny facts about my family : they really loves me to eat alot!!! Like alot!! Hahaha even. Think that was too much of foods but they just want me to be happy and they know i lbe foods!!

But when they see me like this they all got disappointed and i dont know may be pissed at me..

I always envy every mom that always support their children to eat less (this sounds wrong) but my mom is not type of person like that..

So anyone can help me out with this problem?? I really like to hear some advice????( like anyone care or read my blog eh??)

X.oX.o
Vvg

haihai hoooo!!!!

okay guys i know this is completely random but i really want to make a cooking tutorial (although i cant even cook well) but past these year due to living by myself i found myself enjoying cooking so much... I know my roomie doesnt even compliment my skill yet but you know what that means u gotta try harder (stubbooorrrnn!!)

especially i know i ve been acting super duper weird lately and i know what the cause of it.

i give u some hint....it 's about guy.......

it's ridiculous isnt it? i mean i was completely cannot think clear and began to not trust every guy that i met..that s so silly of me ( i just realized that like just now literally lol)...

I know it was not even serious but it still bugs me. and i was kinda lost my pride.. all i want is just to get my pride back that's it!!

but......

it's very hard to forget someone that really meant for u during valentines day *kyyyaaa
okay i was being a little bit exaggerating but it s true...none of the girls would easy to get through break-ups....

in my case it was not break ups it s about something elseeee...

well i cant really tell you because i decided to forget what happen in the past


there is no point to recall those memories back...yes there is not!!


so for you guys that by any chance read my blog and having break-ups moment..dont be sad...

YOURE NOT ALONE!!!!

there are still plenty of guys out there!!

go out and have fun with them hawhahwhawhhaha!!

not literally like sleep around okay?hahahhaha

btw i caught a bouquet of flower today from my cousins' wedding..it was very suprising for me because i never had one..

anw.......

i know there is moment that i will for sure think or recall memories that i had with my past but in the other hand ill try to see happen next :)


X.O.X.O
VVG