Nowhere to run ehh??

If there is nowhere to run which i mean ive been update my life with twitter and facebook and now path the recent social media just appeared..the whole situation is im having big conflict with everyone so there is no way im gonna post it on facebook and twitter right?!!!

I decided to log back into my blog account hich i barely use (last time i used it for finding LS) looorrrrrrr!!!

Anyway this all started when i went back home to indonesia for the third time hahaha i really make it sound like do i?? This time i went back home ALL of em got annoyed with my recent behavior..
WHYWHYWHY????


Jeng jeng jeng.......

Because well u know i think i hit the puberty kinda late...i realized im feeling it right now..when i didnt care about other's opinion, my friends already did..when i didnt care about my appearance others already did..

Now i feel like i have to really keep my food portion to get a proportional body ehhh??

I dont know what im doing actually.. I just keep my portion less than everyone that was my only goal..

Why did i even do this shit??

Because i realized last year when i went back to indo for the second time i can say i was huge whahahahah lol.. I LOVE foods okay..everyone does even models they love it too..

I dont like running or working out ughhhh..but i gotta do it because i feel have to maintain my stamina.. Is that even reasonable??


Okay the main reason is because i just dont want to be chubby anymore hihihi chubby awww ..
I feel like once i get chubby it s hard to get back into shapes again sooooo hmmm i have to keep checking on my foods??i think so??may be u guys disagree with me like my fam did but this is what im doing for currently..

And the funny facts about my family : they really loves me to eat alot!!! Like alot!! Hahaha even. Think that was too much of foods but they just want me to be happy and they know i lbe foods!!

But when they see me like this they all got disappointed and i dont know may be pissed at me..

I always envy every mom that always support their children to eat less (this sounds wrong) but my mom is not type of person like that..

So anyone can help me out with this problem?? I really like to hear some advice????( like anyone care or read my blog eh??)

X.oX.o
Vvg